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[lynzie914]

A post full of randomness basically.

+Somebody should totally make me a Steroline video to Leighton Meester’s new song Heartstrings. Partly because I’m newly obsessed with it and partly because its perfect for the beginning of S5 and where their relationship is right now.

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I’ve been loving all the Stefan/Caroline scenes this season. Ship it don’t ship it, its wonderful. It’s all about their relationship, Caroline verbalizing everything so you know her part, whether she's verbalizing it to Stefan or not, and Stefan saying things to the audience that Caroline can’t hear, with his eyes and body. And even if its in front of Caroline, she can't see or hear it. And its horribly beautiful and I love it.

AND I LOVE ALL OF IT. I love Caroline resenting him for just leaving. I love him not being able to listen to her phone calls, out of everyone she is the only one he doesn't answer. I love her calling him a dick and walking out on him, because well, he was being one. I love her trying to get him to stay, opening up and asking him to stay, and him walking away. (A theme in her life.) And I love him dumping Ivy on her, leaving, and then returning, and her telling him she wishes he would just leave. And then this latest episode, where he doesn't seem to get it at all, doesn't apologize at all and Caroline leaves him there all alone, when he's finally gotten what he's wanted and tells him she doesn't want to be friends anymore.

ITS ALL ANGST. ITS ALL HORRIBLE AND WONDERFUL AND PERFECT AND I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT.

Its all just such a wonderful progress for their relationship, Caroline growing less reliant on Stefan, seeing that he’s not always the hero, he’s sometimes the dick Salvatore too. (There is no good Salvatore Brother, its the secret no one's willing to admit.) All of these things needed for her to truly see him if a relationship is ever going to happen. And I’d like a slow burn please. :D (Though I also want to see their faces smooshed together, so show, don't let me down.)

But back to the song. Not all the lyrics fit but there’s lines like Now you're feeling all alone, I bet you're sorry now but that’s what you wanted. and You only did this to yourself. and finally, I was fighting, for you. Now I'm fine without you.

Seriously how perfect would that video be? I’d even take art or anything. It would just be perfect.

But then, I like a good angsty video...



+I have a lot of Arrow feelings. Mostly Thea and Felicity related (especially after the last episode). But I don't know how to voice them. Someone come talk to me.

+I'm rewatching S5 of Buffy at the moment. And I spent like half of last night bawling. Its probably my favorite season (though I'm glad the show doesn't end that season for many reasons), but yeah, it makes me cry. Dawn and Buffy and Joyce. I CRY.

+And a meme, because I love memes and sometimes they encourage my muse. sometimes they don't.

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One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:
My het ship:
My fem/slash ship:
My OTP:
My OT3:
My cross over ship:
A headcanon fact:
My gender bend:

(Fandoms mostly in my profile page. Otherwise you can just shout out characters until we get one that we both know. :D)

Comments

[lynzie914.livejournal.com]

Yes, exactly! I love that we're on the same page on this. I'm loving what their doing with the two of them. Because like you said, you can see both sides. You see the girl who lost everything and was reaching out to the one person who was always supposed to be there. "I promise I won't let anything happen to you." Especially after how close they had gotten last year, and more than that she because she watched him die.

And then Stefan, well he is being a dick. But his loss of Damon is fueling so much of it. And you get that when you see the whole story, when you see that his "new life" includes lettng guys at bars beat him up because he thinks he deserves it. But Caroline doesn't know all that, she doesn't know about the guilt or him feeling lost, because he's not telling her. All she sees is another person who chose to walk out of her life. And like you said, even when you understand the bad behavior, it doesn't excuse the bad behavior.

And yes, I want this to lead to more. I want this to be the beginning of something more. Its Caroline fully seeing Stefan (because they kept the two away in S3 so she saw less of crazy ripper stefan/stefan going to far and honestly we don't even know how much she knows about what in S3 because the show never told us.) I want it to be them seeing each other for who they are, the real thems completly, and realizing that they love the whole person not just the parts that they've seen. (Like I said, a nice slow burn that ends up with lots of moments of their faces smooshed together.)



I know you would. :D



I LOVE that your considering doing a Chlex vid, because YAY! But off hand, I have nothng. Maybe if I think on it? But I'm totally here if you need help wth Lex scenes if you decide to do the vid. My memory might be a little fuzzy but I think I should be helpful there.

[chleansmile.livejournal.com]

Everything you said, plus this time around there's no 'his switch was flipped to 'humanity - off'' to explain his shitty behavior, but the exact opposite in fact, Stefan acting like an *ss because his feelings over the loss of his brother are so overwhelming they eclipse everything else. Which actually might help Stefan's case if he would just come clean about everything to Caroline, because she definitely understands letting your feelings get the better of you.

[lynzie914.livejournal.com]

Very true. That was the thing about the last episode and him trying to "fix" things with Caroline. He was looking for a list of things to do, but what he needed to do was well actually apologize and beyond that explain. That it wasn't Mystic Falls or Caroline that he was running from, that it was a life without his brother that he thought was permanent. That his actions were fueled by grief.

And like you said, Caroline is understanding (sometimes too much so) and I think if he would explain/remember that he hurt her, she would understand. She lost Bonnie too, she's lost other people and she wouldn't know how it felt to lose people that have been part of her life for so long, but Caroline would understand to the best of her ability.